Intentionality into the storm

Sometimes we know things are going to get crazy and knowing that we still decide to jump right in. We all know that sometimes the hardest things bring the biggest “rewards” or that sometimes with tribulation comes beauty. Years ago our family made a covenant to not let ourselves get into the crazy cycle. We aren’t going to allow time to master us, we aren’t going to let sleep deprivation be an excuse, and frankly, we aren’t going to put ourselves into a situation that makes us so weary that it becomes a controlling factor over us. Most of the year we do really well with this but we just know that the beginning and end of the school year calendar is going to be difficult. Yet, rather than change the calendar, we mostly change our heart and mindset. We know it is only a short season and we gear up. We know the storm is coming and that it is only a short season, how do we walk it well?

For us the fall means 2-3 hours of soccer practice every morning for two weeks before school starts then every evening. It means long days of not seeing our kids. It means the boys have homework every night on top of working at school all day. It means going from a schedule of total summer freedom without a care in the world to be busy literally every minute of the day 7 days a week. As hard as this is, fall is also still our all time favorite season. It gives us a fresh launch for new relationships and goals, it brings bow hunting season which is one of our favorite endeavors in life, it ushers in soccer which will always be one of our greatest family dynamics, and so much more. We know that this season also is going to breed hardship. that there will be defeat, blood, tears, and everything in between that isn’t always fun. If we aren’t in the right kingdom dynamic, there will be some backlash. How do we live out theses chaos monsters of life well? Here are some life dynamics that might help:

Your family is your God given team, start truly working like one. Often times we have been exposed to great team management skills somewhere on a team, work, or other places; but we haven’t ever transferred that kind of thinking of intentionality and spiritual dynamics to our family. What does it look like to take a day before the storm and prepare? Perhaps a retreat before the storm, talk openly about what is coming and the effects that it will have. Talk about what you are challenged by in these seasons and how people can best come along side you. What is everyone’s strengths and weakness in the chaos? Help each other identify tools to work through things. Maybe you also need some emergency language? Do you have a code for when someone from the family is at a hurt or breaking point? When this happen do you have emergency plans? How do you exhibit grace on grace? Lastly, this shouldn’t just fall on dad, as the front shield (head) of the family or even a co-parenting dynamic, everyone needs to own it.

  • Philippians 2:2
  • 1 Corinthians 1:10
  • Ephesians 4:3
  • Romans 12:16

Establish a mandate that you aren’t going to lower your families bar of Grace and love during the coming storm. Too often it is easy to not be a Christian is turmoil. Be committed to not lowering the bar but actually raining it. Be resilient and committed to help your brothers and sisters better. Maybe there is a simple word to use as a quick course alignment. If you see the family or a person is getting off track or might be stumbling perhaps a gentle kiss, or some other action that shows family support, rea-aligns, goals, and brings people back to your kingdom mission can help. I have found that for this to work everyone has to be regularly reminded of your family’s mission and value of edification over everything. Sometimes this is very difficult. When people aren’t in great places, they often don’t accept good-willed gesture’s, it is something as a family that is going to take some training in. The first time you implement this may not be easy, but as it becomes the muscle memory of your family, I am confident it will show covenant relational success.

  • 2 Corinthians 12:9
  • Hebrews 4:16
  • Matthew 22:37-39
  • 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

It starts individually before the Lord. Each person needs to commit to Jesus first and over everything. Devotions, surrounding yourself with kingdom things, walking with people that share the same dynamics, being of the same mission and heartset. If each person is personally moving in this direction and your family is on the same page, the stars align even during turmoil. When some people are low and feeling defeated, there are some that are willing to lead, be the cheerleaders, encourage, motivate, and restore. That is the great thing about different giftings in a team dynamic. God can use each person individually in huge ways. What are your best gifts? How can you contribute best in the difficult times?

  • 1 Corinthians 1:10
  • Philippians 2:2
  • Colossians 3:14
  • Ephesians 4:3

Mom and Dad (hopefully but there is also a conversation point for single parenting here) you need regular heart to heart checkups with your kids that are grounded in Jesus. Prayer is a great way to do this. Perhaps before the kids leave every day it is a devotional and prayer. Perhaps you text them a prayer every day. Maybe it is a sticky note in their lunch, or a checking at the end of school. Maybe at pickup it is a trip to a park for a 5-minute walk. We trick ourselves into thinking we don’t have time for these things, but the truth is we NEED to make or create the time, and we can and should do it. Maybe we do this with their friends too. I start every soccer practice off with a devotional.

  • 1 Thessalonians 5:11
  • Hebrews 10:24-25
  • Galatians 6:2
  • Romans 14:19

What are the hard times for each person? Identify this. How can you minister to someone in their chaos or hardship if you don’t know when this is or will be? How do you see it coming? How can each person communicate when they are hurting, exasperated, need time, or space, or just needs help? What can you do to help, to share the load, to ease the burden? Parents, you will never believe how transparency when you are having a hard day helps with your kids, transparency and asking for prayer or help functions as a healthy reset button. It identifies that you need to function as a covenant team and invites peoples help. Sometimes people aren’t in a place to describe how they can be helped? As a family and individuals how do you identify and work through this? How do you keep your communications edifying and acting to build up each other? Sometimes in transitional moments you have time to talk through this. Start planning for intentionality and slow down times strategically built into hectic schedules.

  • Philippians 1:3-4
  • 1 Timothy 2:1
  • Romans 12:15
  • Romans 15:1

Often times when we get busy, we want to cut our time with Jesus short. That is exactly the opposite of what we should do. Think the other way, create times in adversity and busyness to invite Jesus to the storm. Don’t compromise the word because your life gets busy. Think with a backwards kingdom dynamic. Be committed to being the person that does this in your family.

  • 1 Timothy 4:6-16 
  • Colossians 2:7
  • 1 Corinthians 15:58
  • Colossians 4:2

THE SEASON -Biblically and philosophically

This might surprise you, but the context of this verse has nothing to do with things being predetermined or preordained.  From a Hebrew perspective life is filled with moments when certain actions and responses are called for.  Life isn’t set before you get here.  Your responses, your choices, your actions – and the actions of all the rest of the created order – shape what happens next as we go along.  What you do has eternal consequences. You weren’t born into a responsibility for other people’s actions (the idea of original sin) – God desires you to make regular strategic choices to live for him in every decision.

There is a careful distinction between sovereignty and immutability.  Sovereignty means that God is finally (at the end of it all) in charge.  Nothing usurps His final authority.  But the creation of other moral free agents means that God has purposefully limited His potential total control in order to allow other free agents to choose.  In the end, He will act, but in the meanwhile, we act either with Him or against Him – and our actions change things.  Augustine’s proposal that God simply knows exactly what we will do (our future free will “choices”) from all eternity is wrong.  It is logical Greek philosophy, but it isn’t biblical.

What we do now changes the course of the universe.  The weight of the world rests on our shoulders.  Your choices affect everything else.  They affect you, they affect your family and they affect everyone around you. Because the “plan” isn’t fixed, your choices alter consequences which affect other choices which alter other consequences, and so on. 

Let’s walk this well together! Let’s think strategically about even in the harder times of life we glorify God to our utmost. Let’s consider what that means in covenant together.

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ALTD Weekend 51 and the desires of your heart

How can you pursue something if you don’t know where it is? That’s pretty much the core directive in spiritual discipline today. We want to follow Paul’s exhortation. We want to pursue righteousness. But when we look for the goal, we have no idea where it is, so we just keep kicking the ball down the road. I coach soccer and that is my greatest issue, players kicking the ball with no strategic direction. They don’t understand that sometimes the best plan is a back pass, or the need for a triangle pass, to get rid of the ball so you get it back in a better place.1 It doesn’t work for one person to dribble the ball 120 yards and shoot. You can have all the energy, skill, and desire in the world and that plan isn’t going to work.2

Have you ever paused to formulate your spiritual game plan? Anyone feel like my soccer players sometimes or perhaps the onlooking frustrated coach? Can you see this spiritually? Perhaps you have been part of it…

  • People that look exhausted when there are others standing right there with the desire and tools to help carry the weight?
  • People trying to accomplish things they don’t have the gifting for when there are others waiting right there that do?
  • Perhaps people getting way to sidetracked focusing on stuff that doesn’t matter because they don’t have the eyes to see, they need a friend’s eyes.
  • You ever watch someone that doesn’t know where the goal is? Maybe they just need a simple hand gesture. There it is – This is the way!

That is why we are a community, defined by what we are united for. This is and should be defined out of communion to God and mission with each other.

The Bible says here to Pursue after it. Spiritual discipline defines the identity of God is us.

Youthful lusts may not mean exactly what you think it means here, the Greek word is epithymias, or violent forces of compulsion. It is the strongest of Greek words. That is how young soccer players score goals. Older players want precisely calculate plans; young players crash in half out of control and might make an amazing dangerous play but it isn’t really what coaches are desirous of. The play may be wild and uncalculated but it also has won a game or two. Perhaps there is a season for both in the Christian life, but here the emphasis is on focus, determination and strategically assessing and calculating your spiritual plans. Yes God uses the wild plays but desires and wants us to also have a better plan of cultivation.

In Hebraic thought this is referred to as the yetzer ha’ra vs yetzer ha’tov – The inclinations of the heart, the decisive choices between what is good and what is of the world with both of them pulling at you. Ra can mean evil but it is usually more of desire for the world; Tov is good, or what God created for us, but often incomplete. He offers what is of Him and asks us then to partner with him which makes it complete.3

This is the energy of life, the passion to change your world, the reason for doing anything at all. In Christ. These things cannot be erased as long as you are breathing. In fact, we might even suggest that both the yetzer ha’ra and the yetzer ha’tov  is a gift from God, the essential motivating power of His Spirit breathed into you. The problem is not the forceful energy. The problem is direction.4

I was an ADD kid. You wouldn’t know it today unless you know me really well. I have never been medicated for it, but I have learned to control that spirit. I am still in process. (I am certainly not saying I am not an advocate of medication in this area though, I certainly am in some situations.) Has anyone ever picked up on this with me? Can I apologize to you for it… I am constantly busy. I can’t focus on one thing I need to have 44 different interactions going on at once. If you have ever tried to have more than a 2 minute focused conversation with me, you will know I can hardly do it. This has been my biggest blessing and biggest curse in life. What I have found is that it has been needed to be given to God 44 times a day. For me that was what it meant to take on the cross daily. Strategic thought every day. My ADD has caused some problems but it has also allowed me to accomplish great things when I make God the center. God uses me to move mountains and then my ADD looks more like a gift than a curse.

“Pursue after” is the Greek verb dioko. Amazingly, it is just as strong as epithymeo. It is translated “to impel, to persecute, to expel, to accuse, to follow zealously.” You see God gives us the passion that we can’t understand.

My favorite thing in life today is to wake up at 4am and spend 3 hours deeply meditating on the things of the Lord, writing, pondering, discussing, arguing with myself, pushing pulling. Sometimes I give in and just spend all day doing this! Thise are my favorite days.

I haven’t always been wired that way. Remember that ADD problem. There was a time where it seemed impossible to be in the word for 5 minutes! But I gave it to God and God turned my curses into blessings. I hated 9th grade grammar. Thats what my wife teaches BTW! How ironic. That was my least favorite class ever. The diagramming, the relationship of one word to another. I remember shouting out in the middle of class, WHO CARES at the top of my lungs one day and then was sent to the principal’s office. Well, I know God has a sense of humor because today one of my greatest joys is parsing words in Hebrew which isn’t a whole lot different than 9th grade English class. How can that be? And the love of my life teaches 9th grade grammar!

How do we get from where you are to where you want to be?

ONE STEP AT A TIME, ONE FOOT AFTER THE OTHER, STAY FOCUSED and 5 minutes becomes 10, then 20, then an hour, then a day or even three days… you get the point!

This is called DEVOTION.

Our life is the playing field of both the epithymeo and the dioko, the Yetzer ha’ ra and the tov. We are in the image of and God passionately creates, He brings His will into being, He fights for righteousness, He forcefully hunts down the faithful, He uses us to strive for the good? Isn’t God filled with desire? How could His breath in you be anything less? The difference is in the direction.5

Don’t destroy your passion! Don’t try to erase what the Spirit loaned to you. My life verse, Psalm 37:4 Why do you think God promises to give you the desires of your heart? So that you can live pabulum lives? He wants to put His desires into your heart so that all that rage for life will be directed toward His ends.

  1.  “In a globalised world, the football World Cup is a force for good”The Conversation. 10 July 2014. Archived from the original on 8 August 2014.  ↩︎
  2. Magnusen, Marshall J (June 2010). “Differences in Strength and Conditioning Coach Self-Perception of Leadership Style Behaviors at the National Basketball Association, Division I-A, and Division II Levels”Journal of Strength and Conditioning Research24 (6): 1440–1450. doi:10.1519/JSC.0b013e3181d321ecPMID 20453682S2CID 23289041. ↩︎
  3. Moshe Weinfeld (20 June 2005). Normative and Sectarian Judaism in the Second Temple Period. A&C Black. p. 200. ISBN 978-0-567-04441-9. ↩︎
  4. https://theeffectiveperspective.wordpress.com/2025/07/23/the-yetzer-ha-tov-and-yetzer-ha-ra-the-inner-battle-in-jewish-thought/ ↩︎
  5. May, Gerhard (2004). Creatio ex nihilo [Creation from nothing]. Continuum International. p. xii. ISBN 978-0-567-08356-2↩︎

Jesus Paid it all?!

I bet you have become accustomed to Christians describing Jesus on the cross with phrases like “purchased” or “paid” describing salvation. That through Christ on the cross, salvation was “bought” or “paid in full.” First, to be clear I don’t think the terminology is horrible, this conversation doesn’t mean much to me and I am certainly not “going to war” over anything in this conversation! I believe that as a light metaphor that this kind of phrase can have some truth to it, we make references all the time in day-to-day life with this sort of linguistic analogy. For instance, my son Will was playing soccer the other night in a recreational game on astroturf and made a heralding dive to strike the ball into the goal. After the game I noticed the giant carpet burn on his knee and saif to him, well you certainly paid for that one, but what a shot! No one really thinks that He actually paid money, that would be absurd; we simply mean that there is a cost associated. That is what the Bible means when it talks about what Jesus did at the cross. Yet too many people have turned a simple biblical metaphor into a theological doctrine, and I find it problematic.

There are better ways to communicate what Christ did for us on the cross than using descriptions like paid for or purchased. This gets into atonement theories (x44 has made several videos on this subject) and if you are reformed you might think this language is “correct”; but if you’re not reformed or a Calvinist, you might want to consider a better formation for your cross theology. Let me walk you through some things towards a better consideration.

Twice the apostle Paul informed believers at Corinth, “You were bought with a price.” In 1 Corinthians 6, Paul was making a passionate appeal against sexual immorality. He concluded his argument, stating, “Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body” (1 Corinthians 6:19–20, ESV). I quoted the ESV (which is a reformed translation if you didn’t know).  1 Peter 1:18–19 says,“For you know that God paid a ransom to save you from the empty life you inherited from your ancestors. And it was not paid with mere gold or silver, which lose their value. It was the precious blood of Christ, the sinless, spotless Lamb of God” (NLT). We also have Jesus Himself saying that He came to give His life as a ransom for us (Matthew 20:28). We now belong to Him according to 1 Corinthians 7:22. Paul repeated this teaching in 1 Corinthians 7:23, notice however, the emphasis on spiritual freedom: “You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of human beings.” Believers are set free from the dominion of the world or sin through the death of Christ (Galatians 1:4). In this way you might say that spiritual freedom comes at the “price” of Christ’s sacrificial death on the cross (1 Peter 2:24). Consequently, since we now belong to Christ, we must not let ourselves come under the control of other humans, Satan, principalities, or the world… we are or should completely be given to Jesus. 1 That is what we all can agree on right? I mean it is right out of the bible! So, there you have it. The Bible specifically uses words like ransom, paid, bought, price etc… So, I bet you are wondering why do I have issues with phrasing it that way?

In biblical theology, the concept of “ransom” is deeply intertwined with the themes of deliverance and salvation. The term “ransom” according to antiquity refers to the “price paid” to secure the release of someone from bondage or captivity. In general describing what Jesus accomplished through the cross this way is known as the ransom which theory teaches that the death of Christ was a ransom sacrifice, usually said to have been paid to Satan, in satisfaction for the bondage and debt on the souls of humanity as a result of inherited sin.2 Well as you might have perceived,

In the Old Testament, the Hebrew word “kopher” is often used to denote a ransom, particularly in the context of redeeming a person or property.3 For example, Exodus 21:30 discusses the payment of a ransom for the life of a person who has been sentenced to death: “If payment is demanded of him, he may redeem his life by paying the full amount demanded of him.” So there is a Hebraic understanding of transactional payment biblically that is associated with the term ransom, but the problem with thinking that way is that what Jesus does for us on the cross intentionally came with no strings attached, it is a free gift of Grace. What Christ did on the cross was a backwards kingdom dynamic, it was opposite of the world’s expectations. In other words, there wasn’t a physical price paid. This is very important. In the Exodus did Moses pay Pharaoh? Did God pay the spiritual powers he was warring against? NO. There was no payment made. The exodus foreshadows the cross and in the same way there wasn’t a payment made. Jesus didn’t have to pay off God and God didn’t pay Satan. Are you following me? So, phrase it this way is actually poor theology and nearly the opposite idea of what the text portrayed in the exodus and through the cross. Talking about inherited sin or original sin is one of the pillars of Calvinism and thus those that hold to a “ransom” theory are typically reformed. If you aren’t familiar with this conversation this video series will help. Although I do believe in a ransom motif in the exodus and through Jesus at the cross, I do not think framing it as transactional is good theology.

The definition of the word “ransom” has changed over time. At the time the New Testament was written before the end of the first century, it referred to the practice of capturing individuals and demanding their release, particularly in ancient times. In the ancient world it was almost never ties to money, it was based on threats of power and ruling.4 In this sense, Exodus portrays the ransom of the Hebrews quite well. But I certainly won’t deny that at times money was involved; but the emphasis should always be on freedom motive not the payment motive. When you really dive into this what you find is that in the ancient world ransom was relational. You demanded ransom because it was the right thing. It was to put your foot down and demand that an injustice be reconciled. In the Middle Ages and Reformation, the term evolved to usually describe payments made for the release of hostages, and it has also been used figuratively to describe any exorbitant payment or price demanded for something. The definition has certainly changed over time to be described less relational and has become more transactional. The biblical authors definition was relational not transactional, yet we have come to interpret it through our own modern lens as transactional.

Ransom in scripture should always be interpreted as a release of slaves giving freedom. This fits every context of verses that we see the word used in from Micah 6:4 to Isaiah 43:3. Isaiah 52:3 is very clear on this. God says he sold Israel for nothing, and they shall be ransomed/redeemed without payment. Isaiah 45:13 echoes the same thoughts. The point is that the word ransom biblically shouldn’t be used in a substitutionary sense. NT Wright and even the reformed scholar Leon Morris have made this clear. 5

The Greek helps us out here. ὑπέρ Huper (for) means for a benefit. That is what is used in nearly every context of Jesus giving up his life. Not anti (for) which would be in the place of or an exchange. 

When you try to frame the work of the cross as needing to buy someone out, it creates a transactional dynamic that isn’t part of grace and isn’t biblical. Now again, there are some elements that are transactional and that is why this is complicated and often misunderstood. Grace itself is a free gift, yet there is a benefactor understanding of reciprocity. When you give a gift there is no expectation for a payment, you freely give it. Yet in relationships of any kind there are some expectations. In the circle of Grace when Christ gave his life for you, the reciprocity is that you in turn give your life to him.6 But that didn’t actually cost money, there was no buyout, but there was a cost. When we think about Jesus transactionally it muddies the water. I am sure you have been told your whole life that everything costs something, or that if you want something that is worth anything it is going to cost you. In this regard, giving your life to Christ from a worldly sense will cost you everything, your life itself. But Jesus isn’t selling anything. When we frame grace as transactional it leaves us thinking what are we going to get out of Jesus or Christianity. What do we get from the deal? It points you in the wrong direction. With Jesus we don’t get, we give… Job was righteous because he had no expectations.7

To use transactional language cheapens the work of Jesus through the cross. God wasn’t negotiating with terrorists in the Exodus. He obliterated the spiritual powers at war. The exchange was allegiance, freedom, and liberation… no money was exchanged. But was there a cost? The Egyptian “world” certainly suffered. At the cross Jesus gave his life and it was brutal. But that shouldn’t be the emphasis of what Jesus did. In fact, it really shouldn’t be emphasized at all. Sometimes I don’t even like to use the word cross when describing Jesus. For instance, I prefer to say the work of Jesus not the work of the cross. The cross didn’t accomplish anything, Jesus did everything. The cross itself is a picture of barbaric humanity not the generous grace of Jesus, that should better be framed precisely through Christ himself. Yet I still think there is a place for the image of the cross. People should view it as the method to which Jesus did accomplish many things enabling complete life and freedom in Him.

What happened at the cross to Jesus was a result of religious hierarchy. The Jewish religious leaders tied into to the government corruption of the day essentially crucified Jesus. Did Jesus willfully “give his life?” Well, let’s not forget that he prayed for the cup to be passed. If there could have been another way through the father Jesus would have opted for it. Again, this is important in the text. What happened at the cross was brutal and unjust. Jesus turned the other cheek all the way to the grave. It is a picture of complete sacrifice and humility. But it shouldn’t be viewed theologically as transactional. We don’t know exactly why God allowed or used the cross to accomplish the victories that he did, but the fact is that is the way it unfolds. The ransom analogy should be viewed as redemption and freedom not monetary exchange. To view the cross as some kind of economic exchange isn’t accurate. God wasn’t paying or even appeasing Satan and Jesus wasn’t paying or appeasing God the father. Are you following? The trinity wasn’t broken at the cross.

It really becomes “cheap” when you frame it as a payment. For instance, what you are saying is that Jesus then gave his life to “buy” all of the lives who would “accept” him for all of time. That sounds good but think about it for a second. How much is Christ’s life really worth if you are exchanging it for all who believe for all of time, millions, maybe billions? It is actually devaluing him. Who wouldn’t make “that deal” if that is all it was. If I had the power and said to you – if you allow me to crucify you it would buy 10 people you deeply care about eternal salvation, I bet, you would do it. I would. Then if you say not just 10 but EVERYONE who believes it really makes it cheap doesn’t it? What Christ did on the cross shouldn’t be cheapened transactionally. It wasn’t a buy it program. The funny thing about atonement “theories” is that we aren’t actually told in the Bible exactly what Jesus accomplishes through the cross. That is why they are called theories. But let’s not devalue the life of Christ as we theorize. Jesus accomplishes so much through the death, resurrection, and ascension, we don’t need to cheapen it or make it into something it didn’t biblically portray.

Why did Jesus have to die on a cross? That is the grand question. The Bible actually doesn’t precisely answer this question. Perhaps that is some of the mystery of the gospel. A common view in Western Evangelicalism of what happened on the cross is this: humans have sinned and God must punish sinners by venting his wrath, but thankfully, because he loves us, Jesus went to the cross and was murdered in our place to pay our debt, so that God can forgive our sins and we can go to heaven when we die. This idea of how the cross works is called the “Penal Substitution Theory” of the atonement.8 The Penal Substitution Theory has not been the most common view throughout all of church history, nor is it the most common view of the worldwide church today. So while Penal Substitution Theory may be the majority view in modern, Western theology, the Church must wake up and realize that such a view is partially modeled after paganism, often mischaracterizes God, ultimately does not take sin seriously, and leaves out what actually happened on the cross.

The Penal Substitution Theory and purchase, debt language basically depicts God as a debt collector who must collect before he can forgive. Despite the fact that Scripture tells us that love keeps no record of wrongs (1 Corinthians 13:5), this theory states that Jesus must pay our debt to the Father (or in some cases Satan). The idea that God is merciful and forgiving, while also defining justice as demanding payment of debt don’t work together, they are at odds philosophically and ontologically. If there is a debt that is paid, then the debt is never forgiven at all. Sin is not forgiven on the cross in the Penal Substitution Theory; it is just paid off. We would never then be able to be washed truly clean. But what becomes even more problematic in thinking this way is that the only way in which God could be seen as merciful in paying the debt for mankind’s sin by killing Jesus. Let’s be clear God didn’t kill Jesus; he allowed Jesus to be killed and in a “Narnian like story” was a “way maker” to regain the keys of death. This is best framed through a Christus Victor form of atonement, but I also wouldn’t limit the work of the cross to a single view. Scot McKnight has a great book, A Community Called Atonement that is worth reading.9

Christ’s justice is restorative, not retributive. God doesn’t need anyone to pay off debt in order to forgive. God can just simply forgive. That’s what forgiveness is! Forgiveness is not receiving payment for a debt; forgiveness is the gracious cancellation of debt. There is no payment in forgiveness. That is what makes forgiveness mean anything. I have said it many times, but if you are a Calvinist, you can’t truly believe in biblical forgiveness; in the same way a Calvinist struggles to believe in any kind supplication kind of prayer as they don’t believe God works that way. I get that the reformed camp has their own way of explaining how this works, but it seems like a good deal of theological gymnastics.

Along with these misnomers you also may hear people say that Jesus died as our substitute or in our place. That isn’t the intention of this article but let me touch on it briefly since it is closely ties into our conversation. Often PSA advocates might say something like, Jesus was being punished by God for our sins and that what Jesus suffered in torture and crucifixion which is then essentially what every person deserves. That doesn’t really make any sense. Do you deserve to be tortured forever? This makes grace transactional again… accept it or be tortured forever? (Another strong claim for annihilation vs ECT but again, another discussion.) How is it true that every person deserves to be tortured to death? This sounds monstrous to me, not fitting the Exodus 34 self-description of God. Furthermore, if Jesus truly would have died in our place and gotten what we deserved according to PSA shouldn’t he then go to hell eternally according to their own reformed theology? The theory doesn’t hold up. Jesus died on a cross outside Jerusalem at the hand of the Romans (Matthew 27; Mark 15; Luke 23; John 19). None of us faced that death. He did not take our place on a cross, we didn’t deserve that and some would argue that he didn’t either, although Jesus was certainly “guilty” of not being allegiant to Roman authority.

If you have made it this far you likely know or have some knowledge of the foreshadowing of the sacrificial system to also be a picture of some of the thigs Jesus would become and accomplish. If you need to brush up, read the second part of this article first. 10 Two goats are selected for Israel: The sin offering goat and the goat that will “bear the sin”. Lots are cast to see which goat fulfills which role. Jesus actually embodies both at times. The second goat the scapegoat, or the azazel would carry away the sin of the camp into the wilderness. To be clear it is a picture, or a mosaic. Jesus will accomplish what the goat never could. The goat is a picture of simply transferring sin out of the camp, Jesus actually removes it completely. In theology this is called Expiation which means that the barrier lies outside of God, within humankind and/or a stain they leave on the world (sacred space), it is often interpreted as an action aimed at removing sin. To cover, wipe, or to purge sin. Where I believe some theology gets off is when you interpret this story as a propitiation view (punishment). The goat bears the sin and wrath. I don’t think this a great interpretation, but I have gotten significantly into that in videos and other articles. I don’t want to get too far into this here, but propitiation doesn’t really fit (work) for a number of reasons. Fopr instance if the goat was bearing the sin (carrying) it could not be a sacrifice because God only gets spotless pure animals (what does that do for your New Testament theology of the cross if Jesus was imputed our sin?) In Leviticus 16, the Hebraic sacrificial system, we have the first goat as the purification offering which is given to cleanse the temple objects. Blood is not applied to anyone. The scapegoat is sent to Azazel. So, sin, the forces of death, are removed from the camp. This connects God is rescuing his people from the forces of death. (Again it is an Exodus motif of freedom.) Neither of these goats are punished. It’s about expelling or purging God’s space (so Expiation!) The first goat (the one that dies) is more about cleaning the throne room of the stain of sin. The scapegoat doesn’t get killed. This is all about resetting sacred space (getting back to Eden).

To be frank, all of this comes off as weird to us. But God often meets people where they are at within their unique cultural dynamic. All Ancient Near Eastern cultures (including ones that existed before the Hebrews) killed animals, and sometimes humans, to appease the gods. Animal sacrifice is undebatably pagan. Yes, the God of the Bible used this pagan ritual to teach his people something new but it was always just a step in the process to get them away from it. It is really important to note that God never needed sacrifices in order to forgive. Why is this important? The Penal Substitution Theory ignores all this and says that God the Father still demands blood in order to take away sins.11

Leviticus 16 and the story of the scapegoat has some substitutionary aspects. I certainly do not deny that there are pictures of Jesus as our substitute. There is a difference between PSA and simple metaphor of substitution. Whenever you are understanding of substitution wanders into the camp of God’s wrath needing to be satisfied buy killing something I have a problem with that. The sacrificial system needs to be interpreted in light of restorative relationship being reconciled and the theme of redemption. I think when you start trying to understand this as imputation and especially double imputation, you’re getting off track and outside the picture that God has given us for what Jesus accomplishes through the cross, resurrection, and ascension. Again, if we take on this sort of reformed kind of thinking we are having to do some theological gymnastics to make it all work that seem unnatural to the message and mission of Jesus.

Payment language should paint a picture about the costliness of Jesus’ life and not about who receives the payment. So Jesus could “pay it all” by living in total surrender even unto death. We regularly use this analogy of “paid” as total dedication with soldiers who “paid the price for our freedom” in giving up their life in battle. In the same way, they literally did not “pay off” anyone or take anyone’s place. Instead, they died for a benefit to others and gave all they had. That is the way scripture also poses it the few times we see this sort of language used as I displayed in the opening paragraphs, but for some reason when it comes to the cross, PSA and reformed theology (which sometimes then becomes non reformed people using the same language) resorts to Jesus paying off God.

Since a lot of us like digging deeper, it could also help to point out how this “paid” language can sound like old pagan religion, where people had to pay off the gods with sacrifices. The gospel is the opposite of that. God comes to us first and makes things right. It makes sense to name PSA as the view most tied to “paid it all” language and explain why it does not match the whole story of Scripture. If we use the wider range of Bible images instead of locking into just one, we can talk about the cross in a way that shows God’s love and His plan to restore all things. Ending with a simple example of how this shift in language could change the way we pray, teach, or share the gospel would make it hit home even more for me.

I know you have heard these terms your whole life and might believe them to be the gospel, but that isn’t Biblical. Did Jesus pay for what we have in Him? You don’t need to say that any of this was “bought” or “paid for.” Perhaps you can say that as Paul does sometimes (arguably) as I started out this conversation. The intention of scripture using bought/paid/substitution language should be seen as a light metaphor not doctrine. All of scripture points towards the work of the cross as redemptive not transactional. Grace is free. Do you believe that? The exodus motif is Biblical, but the price attached to it isn’t. Yes, there was a process and sometimes we call this a “cost” as I Cor, 6 may frame it (although if you read it in Greek, you will read it differently that the ESV translates.) The cross Jesus Christ conquered all the powers of evil and ushered in the reign of God and the rule of the kingdom of heaven.12 What Christ offers is a return to Eden and then some. Freedom in him is restored. He sends his Spirit at Pentecost and now we are restored to our vocation as image bearers and are now his living temples showering the physical manifestation of Jesus’ sacrificial love. It is transactional, it isn’t retributive… it is free and restorative to all who want to return to their identity and partnership in Jesus. You were made for this!

  1. https://www.gotquestions.org/bought-with-a-price.html ↩︎
  2. Collins, Robin (1995), Understanding Atonement: A New and Orthodox Theory, Grantham: Messiah College ↩︎
  3. https://biblehub.com/topical/r/ransom_and_redemption.htm ↩︎
  4. https://etymologyworld.com/item/ransom ↩︎
  5. Scot McKnight: What is unobserved by the substitutionary theory advocates is that the ransom cannot be a substitute, as we might find in theologically sophisticated language: where death is for death, and penal judgment is for penal judgment. Here we have a mixing of descriptions: a ransom for slaves. Jesus, in Mark’s language, does not become a slave for other slaves. He is a ransom for those who are enslaved. The difference ought to be given careful attention. To be a substitute the ransom price would have to take the place of another ransom price or a slave for another slave, but that is not what is involved here…The ransom does not become a substitute so much as the liberating price.… The ransom, in this case, is not that Jesus “substitutes for his followers as a ransom” but that he ransoms by being the price paid in order to rescue his followers from that hostile power. The notion is one of being Savior, not substitution. The best translation would be that Jesus is a “ransom for the benefit of many.”
     
    Leon Morris: In the New Testament there is never any hint of a recipient of the ransom. In other words, we must understand redemption as a useful metaphor which enables us to see some aspects of Christ’s great saving work with clarity but which is not an exact description of the whole process of salvation. We must not press it beyond what the New Testament tells us about it. To look for a recipient of the ransom is illegitimate.” Morris, The Atonement, 129 ↩︎
  6. https://www.amazon.com/This-Way-Redefining-Biblical-Covenant/dp/1633572390 ↩︎
  7. https://biblicalelearning.org/wp-content/uploads/2025/01/Walton_Job_Session18.pdf ↩︎
  8. https://www.rivalnations.org/god-didnt-kill-jesus/. ↩︎
  9. https://www.bookey.app/book/a-community-called-atonement ↩︎
  10. https://expedition44.com/2024/12/30/the-new-year-jewish-roots/ ↩︎
  11. The theory pits the Father against the Son even though in nature they should be, and are, eternally the same (Matthew 11:27; John 1:18; 4:34; 5:19-20; 6:38, 46; 8:28; 10:29; 12:49; Colossians 2:9; Hebrews 13:8). The Penal Substitution Theory fractures the Trinity and makes God schizophrenic. We are commanded to forgive like God forgives (Ephesians 4:32). But if we choose to forgive like Jesus then forgiveness will precede repentance (Matthew 9:2; 18:22; Luke 23:34; John 8:11; 20:19-23). However, if we choose to forgive like the father (according to PST), we will only forgive those that show repentance, or after they make a payment of some kind. This clearly creates an unnecessary problem. How and why would God need a blood sacrifice before he could love what he had created? Is God that needy, unfree, unloving, rule-bound, and unable to forgive? Once you say it, you see it creates a nonsensical theological notion that is very hard to defend. Thankfully we see this isn’t God’s character. Jesus shows us what God is like, and Jesus says that our perfect heavenly Father displays perfection as pure mercy (Matthew 5:48, Luke 6:36). ↩︎
  12. https://www.amazon.com/Wood-Between-Worlds-Poetic-Theology/dp/151400562X ↩︎

Audrey I. Lansdowne

A kingdom obituary -April 30, 1925 ~ July 28, 2025

This morning, we will put my grandmother, Audrey in the ground to lie next to her husband Horace who passed on 4 Feb 2000 at the age of 79. She lived to be 100 years old, a full century. Have you ever considered what that means? Audrey’s life was a full century testimony to faith in Jesus Christ, her quiet strength, and endearing heartfelt service to her LORD. Audrey’s life very much embodied that kind of kingdom dedication.

At the end of her high school career during World War II, she stepped up to support her country as a factory worker, aiding the war effort. Even as a young woman, Audrey showed the kind of courage, patriotism, and virtue that would define her entire life. On May 1, 1946, Audrey was united in marriage to my grandfather, Ellington Horace Lansdowne of Madison, WI — a man who had served as a Former Flight Instructor (FFI) in the US Army Air Corps and later, a private flight instructor and firefighter for the City of Madison. 

People don’t really come in this kind of form anymore. It has been described as a lost generation.1 She lived out the great depression eating ketchup sandwiches. Her father passed early in life, so she supported her family working in high school and graduating before her older sisters and likely built bombs in the war effort at the age of 17 because she believed in a country that gave her the freedom of faith to worship her God. Horace showed up in an airplane and said go buy a dress we are getting married tomorrow… and they did and then flew away to start a family… probably on the plane ride home in auto pilot (which would have been a rope tied to the Taylorcraft yoke!)

She and Horace went on to be part of the founding members of Westwood Christian Church where Horace was an elder for many years and Audrey wore many hats. It was at this children’s church that I met my good lifelong friend Keith N. Schoville who started teaching me Hebrew incantations at an early age. He earned a Ph.D from UW Madison and later became the chairman of the of Hebrew and Semitic studies department. Keith helped me get into Bible college at Moody Bible Institute and later was instrumental in getting me into the Ph.D program at UW Madison in the Semitic studies department. I have a lot of great memories of attending church every time we visited grandma and grandpa. Going to church while visiting them was never an option, people don’t really do that anymore and it is unfortunate in many ways. I am thankful for what that sort of endearment ended up crafting in my life.

My grandfather was an adventurer. He literally swept Audrey off her feet and created a great life. She raised babies according to the ways of the LORD, and he did what he could to provide moving them into a sizeable home, working as a Madison firefighter which would later provide a pension that would take care of Audrey (and in some sense my mother) for many years after he was no longer around. Horace (better known as EHL) was a great enthusiast of many things to include aviation, Ford Mustangs, VW Beetles, giant Cadillacs, a 63 corvette (if I remember right), and a pretty good firearms collection that was hidden in every nook and cranny of that old house. I was quite impacted by my younger years with Horace and Audrey. I believe if that old house is ever torn down the walls and floorboards will share some stories. I will always remember driving around the countryside with my father and grandfather from one gun store to another shopping for the rare addition to the collections. I remember the infatuation I had with an old luger that grandpa had and yesterday we (my boys and Rob ad his boys) went shooting with some old WWII classics and I was taken back to remember some of those days with EHL.

My Grandfather is also responsible for my shopping and trading addiction. At a young age he sat me down in next to him at his “aviation” desk, handed me a red marker and a trade-a-plane and said find the best one! For many years that became a great pastime, and I am pretty sure he actually went out and bought one of those planes I circled at one point! As a flight instructor, by the time I was 12 he had me in ground school on a Texas Instrument TI-99 4a (pretty sure the numbers are right but going from total memory) computer flight simulator. This later gave way to me being a near computer wiz before anyone else I knew had even seen a computer. A mere 10 years later (still in the DOS days and even before blackberries) I figured out how to get email into a very early version of what we now call smart phones. I remember EHL not being able to wrap his mind around the concept of the internet and email. EHL would go on to have a stroke that he should have died from but was never really the same after that and passed in 2000, the year before Krista and I married. Audrey spent many years caring for him in that state. Her strength once again showed tenacity.

Audrey was resilient. She moved in with my parents and my father built a new home in the woods of Wausau with a mother-in-law quarter in the basement that was all hers. She loved that place and so did my mother. After my father passed in 2006 at 58 years old that house had special meaning to both of them. But my mother and grandmother were strong and within a few years moved to Walworth in a near new home where they could be close to our family and specifically my boys. This was a missional move.

My children grew up playing songs for Mamaw and great grammy a couple times a week. They attended regular soccer games and were always there to root on the boys in whatever capacity that meant. Grandma always had a special smile for them that no one else ever seemed to get from her! It became one of our greatest joys in life watching the sweet interactions between them. By the time our Oldest, Ty got his license, I would regularly ask where he was to find out he was at Mamaw and Great Grammys just hanging out! I will always remember and cherish the hearts of my boys towards these widows.

One of the things I liked most about Audrey was that she wasn’t overly salvific, and to be clear I don’t say this as being a bad thing; but her entire life she was more committed to deeper discipleship than evangelism and I truly believe that was the heart of Jesus in the great commission. She desired more than just a saving knowledge of Christ, she desired for people to really experience who Jesus was; to know what it meant to leave everything on the beach and give Jesus your complete life. She lived out that message perhaps better than EHL did. It has been said that behind every great man is a greater woman of faith.

That life resiliency that I had come to love and respect so much never left Audrey. Even into her nineties her mind was sharp, and it showed in her love and fervor for things of the LORD. She was a picture of what has become ancient devotion. She watched gospel TV nearly all day long and quite literally had the Bible memorized even in her old age. Even in the last couple of years of her life when her mind and memory showed signs of age she insisted on watching her favorite church services and impressing on my boys the need and desire of her heart for them to walk with the LORD.

Although I may not have agreed with all of her John MacArthur like theology, her fervency of faith was impressive, and I welcomed it into our family. I have a near photographic memory of scripture. I remember verses that people have used that they have long forgotten. It is a gift that is deeply woven into my DNA likely from inception.

One of the last scriptures she recited to me that I remember clearly was Psalm 102:12 –But You, Lord, remain forever, and Your name remains to all generations. (Ok you invited a theologian to address the internment!)

In Hebrew, this is יְהֹוָה לְעוֹלָם, you might recognize it even if you don’t know much Hebrew. David uses the personal name of God, יְהֹוָה , not the word “Lord.” I think at some point Audrey discovered this. It was a very personal verse, not a title but the very NAME of God, YHWH. But the psalmist goes on to say your “name” remains forever. You have probably heard that traditional Jews that don’t pronounce God’s name and often use the term Ha-Shem as a spoken substitute for YHVH which means “the name” in English… but here that isn’t the word that is used for “name.” Instead, the Hebrew word  zēker is used which I find strangely interesting. In Hebrew singular words often tell a plethora of things… this is a sort of remez, or retelling of many things in a simple word or statement, it was idiomatic. The word means, “think (about), meditate (upon), pay attention (to); remember, recollect; mention, declare, recite, proclaim, invoke, commemorate, accuse, confess.2

I imagine if I could go back to that moment with Audrey many years ago when she shared this verse with my young boys that she knew what this verse embodied because she lived it. This verse is God’s declaration. It is the vocational calling and identity that we have in Him and Audrey lived that out and made it known impressing on me at an early age to live this way and later doing the same for my boys.

It’s not the letters YHVH that remain forever.  It’s the remembrance of who He is.  Heschel used to say, “to believe is to remember.”3

One more thing, did you ever notice that “remains to all generations” is in italics? What do you think that means?  In Hebrew it reads:  תֵּשֵב וְזִכְרְךָ לְדֹר וָדֹר׃  (Te-Shev Ve-Zikh-Re-Kha Le-Dor Va-Dor). You will notice the literary rhythmic pattern, the connecting genre of the wisdom and poetic texts.

Te-Shev is the verb “abide” – “You, YHVH, abide [remain].”  But the verb yāšab is more controversial and therefore stumbles in translation, it sometimes is read as “dwell” but here I will challenge (and Robert Alter4 would agree) means “to be enthroned.”  “You, YHVH, are forever enthroned.” 

The NASB then translates “To all generations,” (the word “all” isn’t technically in the text.) 

So here is the thing, the “name” of God, that is, His remembrance, depends on the generations of men or should I even say women. Today this has largely become lost. Do you see the implication?

The verse implies that we need someone to do the praising, remembering, and worshipping—someone alive!  “If I die,” implies the psalmist, “Your glory will be diminished because I won’t be there to praise You.” The Psalmist sees their part in the covenant partnership and so did Audrey. She knew that she needed to live it out and insist on such a way of devotional living. You didn’t play cards in Grandmas house, and you better remember to pray before you eat. Are you following me? God’s faithfulness spans the generations for those that are devout.  for Audrey it was YHWH, “You are worthy of all praise.  Let me partner with that notion.” And that is what she prayed for her grandsons and for us. Today we honor her by doing just that.

I know that her children and grandchildren have taken on a wide range of faith and there is a great deal of diversity here. I ask today that we celebrate that. That we come together in honor of Audrey for what we are united in and find common. I believe that although Audrey would want to encourage you into her John MacArthur like religion and perhaps you already know that greater than I do, but she would also smile on any step that leaned towards Jesus. I invite you to come back to that place.

Would you join me one last time?

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

When we’ve been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we first begun

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see

  1. https://www.bu.edu/historic/_hs_pdfs/Bess_Forum_Mar_Ap_08.pdf ↩︎
  2. Harris, R. L., Archer, G. L., Jr., & Waltke, B. K. (Eds.). (1999). Theological Wordbook of the Old Testament (electronic ed., p. 241). Chicago: Moody Press. ↩︎
  3. https://jewishreviewofbooks.com/articles/5560/in-and-out-of-time/ ↩︎
  4. https://www.amazon.com/Book-Psalms-Translation-Commentary/dp/0393337049 ↩︎

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