ALTD Weekend 51 and the desires of your heart

How can you pursue something if you don’t know where it is? That’s pretty much the core directive in spiritual discipline today. We want to follow Paul’s exhortation. We want to pursue righteousness. But when we look for the goal, we have no idea where it is, so we just keep kicking the ball down the road. I coach soccer and that is my greatest issue, players kicking the ball with no strategic direction. They don’t understand that sometimes the best plan is a back pass, or the need for a triangle pass, to get rid of the ball so you get it back in a better place.1 It doesn’t work for one person to dribble the ball 120 yards and shoot. You can have all the energy, skill, and desire in the world and that plan isn’t going to work.2

Have you ever paused to formulate your spiritual game plan? Anyone feel like my soccer players sometimes or perhaps the onlooking frustrated coach? Can you see this spiritually? Perhaps you have been part of it…

  • People that look exhausted when there are others standing right there with the desire and tools to help carry the weight?
  • People trying to accomplish things they don’t have the gifting for when there are others waiting right there that do?
  • Perhaps people getting way to sidetracked focusing on stuff that doesn’t matter because they don’t have the eyes to see, they need a friend’s eyes.
  • You ever watch someone that doesn’t know where the goal is? Maybe they just need a simple hand gesture. There it is – This is the way!

That is why we are a community, defined by what we are united for. This is and should be defined out of communion to God and mission with each other.

The Bible says here to Pursue after it. Spiritual discipline defines the identity of God is us.

Youthful lusts may not mean exactly what you think it means here, the Greek word is epithymias, or violent forces of compulsion. It is the strongest of Greek words. That is how young soccer players score goals. Older players want precisely calculate plans; young players crash in half out of control and might make an amazing dangerous play but it isn’t really what coaches are desirous of. The play may be wild and uncalculated but it also has won a game or two. Perhaps there is a season for both in the Christian life, but here the emphasis is on focus, determination and strategically assessing and calculating your spiritual plans. Yes God uses the wild plays but desires and wants us to also have a better plan of cultivation.

In Hebraic thought this is referred to as the yetzer ha’ra vs yetzer ha’tov – The inclinations of the heart, the decisive choices between what is good and what is of the world with both of them pulling at you. Ra can mean evil but it is usually more of desire for the world; Tov is good, or what God created for us, but often incomplete. He offers what is of Him and asks us then to partner with him which makes it complete.3

This is the energy of life, the passion to change your world, the reason for doing anything at all. In Christ. These things cannot be erased as long as you are breathing. In fact, we might even suggest that both the yetzer ha’ra and the yetzer ha’tov  is a gift from God, the essential motivating power of His Spirit breathed into you. The problem is not the forceful energy. The problem is direction.4

I was an ADD kid. You wouldn’t know it today unless you know me really well. I have never been medicated for it, but I have learned to control that spirit. I am still in process. (I am certainly not saying I am not an advocate of medication in this area though, I certainly am in some situations.) Has anyone ever picked up on this with me? Can I apologize to you for it… I am constantly busy. I can’t focus on one thing I need to have 44 different interactions going on at once. If you have ever tried to have more than a 2 minute focused conversation with me, you will know I can hardly do it. This has been my biggest blessing and biggest curse in life. What I have found is that it has been needed to be given to God 44 times a day. For me that was what it meant to take on the cross daily. Strategic thought every day. My ADD has caused some problems but it has also allowed me to accomplish great things when I make God the center. God uses me to move mountains and then my ADD looks more like a gift than a curse.

“Pursue after” is the Greek verb dioko. Amazingly, it is just as strong as epithymeo. It is translated “to impel, to persecute, to expel, to accuse, to follow zealously.” You see God gives us the passion that we can’t understand.

My favorite thing in life today is to wake up at 4am and spend 3 hours deeply meditating on the things of the Lord, writing, pondering, discussing, arguing with myself, pushing pulling. Sometimes I give in and just spend all day doing this! Thise are my favorite days.

I haven’t always been wired that way. Remember that ADD problem. There was a time where it seemed impossible to be in the word for 5 minutes! But I gave it to God and God turned my curses into blessings. I hated 9th grade grammar. Thats what my wife teaches BTW! How ironic. That was my least favorite class ever. The diagramming, the relationship of one word to another. I remember shouting out in the middle of class, WHO CARES at the top of my lungs one day and then was sent to the principal’s office. Well, I know God has a sense of humor because today one of my greatest joys is parsing words in Hebrew which isn’t a whole lot different than 9th grade English class. How can that be? And the love of my life teaches 9th grade grammar!

How do we get from where you are to where you want to be?

ONE STEP AT A TIME, ONE FOOT AFTER THE OTHER, STAY FOCUSED and 5 minutes becomes 10, then 20, then an hour, then a day or even three days… you get the point!

This is called DEVOTION.

Our life is the playing field of both the epithymeo and the dioko, the Yetzer ha’ ra and the tov. We are in the image of and God passionately creates, He brings His will into being, He fights for righteousness, He forcefully hunts down the faithful, He uses us to strive for the good? Isn’t God filled with desire? How could His breath in you be anything less? The difference is in the direction.5

Don’t destroy your passion! Don’t try to erase what the Spirit loaned to you. My life verse, Psalm 37:4 Why do you think God promises to give you the desires of your heart? So that you can live pabulum lives? He wants to put His desires into your heart so that all that rage for life will be directed toward His ends.

  1.  “In a globalised world, the football World Cup is a force for good”The Conversation. 10 July 2014. Archived from the original on 8 August 2014.  ↩︎
  2. Magnusen, Marshall J (June 2010). “Differences in Strength and Conditioning Coach Self-Perception of Leadership Style Behaviors at the National Basketball Association, Division I-A, and Division II Levels”Journal of Strength and Conditioning Research24 (6): 1440–1450. doi:10.1519/JSC.0b013e3181d321ecPMID 20453682S2CID 23289041. ↩︎
  3. Moshe Weinfeld (20 June 2005). Normative and Sectarian Judaism in the Second Temple Period. A&C Black. p. 200. ISBN 978-0-567-04441-9. ↩︎
  4. https://theeffectiveperspective.wordpress.com/2025/07/23/the-yetzer-ha-tov-and-yetzer-ha-ra-the-inner-battle-in-jewish-thought/ ↩︎
  5. May, Gerhard (2004). Creatio ex nihilo [Creation from nothing]. Continuum International. p. xii. ISBN 978-0-567-08356-2↩︎